Monthly Review 2015: January

4:06 AM

Photo © Alyanna Palamos 2015

January had been a good start of the year for me. I was able to mark every week with a gold washi tape in my planner this month, which means there had been something really unforgettable and fun that happened during every week.

Right now, I just feel happy. I still have many problems in my life that I need to attend to but right now, I am able to handle my emotions well. I am very much pleased with myself because of this. As most of you know, I just recently deleted my Twitter and Tumblr accounts. Come to think of it, I never actually explained why. People had been asking me but I don’t really give clear and straightforward answers. To be honest, I still can’t confess why exactly but I can tell you this; I did it for myself. I wanted to release myself from all the drama. I wanted to release myself from the old me.

This is probably the first time in weeks that I have really actually written about me. How would I write about myself if there’s nowhere to write on? I’ve deleted my blogs. And I think it has been healthy for me to be this way.

One of my goals for 2015 would be to be selfless. I am happy that I don’t have the urge to talk about myself anymore. I can’t even write proper captions on my Instagram photos when I post them. To tell the truth, I am quite uncomfortable now that I am talking about myself since I am not interested about me anymore. I’m interested about everything else besides me and I’m happy because of that.

I’ve wanted to have a change in my life since I don’t even remember when. Now it’s happening. I’ve finally realized what I was doing wrong; I was expecting to see change in my life while I was doing the same old things, having the same old habits. I had been more strict with myself starting the year. Through that, I’ve realized that I can, and it’s really possible to stop.