Photo © Alyanna Palamos 2015
January had
been a good start of the year for me. I was able to mark every week with a gold
washi tape in my planner this month, which means there had been something
really unforgettable and fun that happened during every week.
Right now,
I just feel happy. I still have many problems in my life that I need to attend
to but right now, I am able to handle my emotions well. I am very much pleased
with myself because of this. As most of you know, I just recently deleted my
Twitter and Tumblr accounts. Come to think of it, I never actually explained
why. People had been asking me but I don’t really give clear and
straightforward answers. To be honest, I still can’t confess why exactly but I
can tell you this; I did it for myself.
I wanted to release myself from all the drama. I wanted to release myself from
the old me.
This is
probably the first time in weeks that I have really actually written about me.
How would I write about myself if there’s nowhere to write on? I’ve deleted my
blogs. And I think it has been healthy for me to be this way.
One of my
goals for 2015 would be to be selfless. I am happy that I don’t have the urge
to talk about myself anymore. I can’t even write proper captions on my
Instagram photos when I post them. To tell the truth, I am quite uncomfortable
now that I am talking about myself since I am not interested about me anymore.
I’m interested about everything else besides me and I’m happy because of that.
I’ve wanted
to have a change in my life since I don’t even remember when. Now it’s
happening. I’ve finally realized what I was doing wrong; I was expecting to see
change in my life while I was doing the same old things, having the same old
habits. I had been more strict with myself starting the year. Through that, I’ve
realized that I can, and it’s really
possible to stop.
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